blika dee blink

Sigh. This time it's a sigh of relief. Today I finally got it sent in. After I finished emailing that final, I logged off the computer at Gateway and left. When I got out of that building it hit me... school is finally done. I've got everything turned in and it's all finished. Man, that felt great. So I've been in a good mood because of that.
Now that I'm in a good mood, I found something to depress me. On facebook I see pictures of all my friends having parties. I feel like I'm missing out big time. It's really kinda depressing. I know I dont need to party, and I probably wont, but there's still that desire nipping away at me.
Also, there's no way I'm finishing the Bible by Christmas. No way I'm finishing it by New Years either. Just no way.

BLAH BLAH BLAH

Sigh. Not a sigh of relief. A sigh of frustration. I got all of my tests and finals and quizzes and everything done. Man, was today a long day. Doing school work from 830-800. Mostly testing too. Sounds good that I'm done, but I've got one more piece of crap lingering in my school-life. Tomorrow by 6pm I need to have my math final emailed to my teacher. It's 25 pages long and I need to scan it into my computer. I scanned it in page by page into one document. I send it, but my email says the attachment is to large to send. I just spent a half hour scanning this and now it says i cant send it. I tried compressing it, converting it, saving it differently. Nothing worked. How can I email 25 pages worth of a document? its like 2500KB. I'm just pissed that I'm not done after this 12 hour day.

Bible by Christmas

I found out that I need to read about 130 pages a day to make it by Christmas. Right now I don't see that happening. My goal is still Christmas, but I might have to change it to New Years. Also, my family is going to Iowa Dec. 22-24. I am not going b/c my freaking idiot of a manager is a retarded moron. At least I wont be home alone for Christmas Day. I'm trying to make today my last day of school and it's so hard. I have 3 tests for my online class. And I have a final for DC/AC that I haven't started yet. I just want to be done with this garbage!

Bible by Christmas

Not sure why, but I've decided to try my hardest to read the bible by Christmas Day. I decided this last night and right now I'm on Genesis 26. Not a clue if it's possible, but I'd like to hope so. It's been absolutely amazing so far... even though I'm 26 chapters in. I have no clue why, but reading the bible now seems so different than ever before. In the past it's always been a drag to sit down and read the bible, but it's so different now. I will read this book any chance I get... I don't want to put it down. I know most of the stories I've read so far, but its incredibly thrilling to me how God works and how he never fails those who trust him. They say the best way to know God is to know His Word. I barely know his word, but I'm hoping to change that.
-Tone E.

Faith

I recently listened to a recorded message from a guy at SBR. It's about three years old. This guy was talking about his faith. He began by talking about his faith as a child and teenager. I swear my life is just like his. He said he grew up in a Christian home, being quite involved in church activities, obeying his parents, mainly being a good guy. To others, he seemed like a great Chirstian guy, but to him things just weren't right. For years he struggled with his relationship with God, and he couldn't figure out why. He eventually realized he had his faith in the wrong place. He had faith not in God, but in everything else. One thing he said that kinda hit me was he had faith in other people for having faith.
I think that I am the new millennium version of this guy. Ever since I was a young boy in Middle School till now I've struggled with having faith. I don't know what it is, but I'm just tired of living the way I am. I totally need to overhaul my heart. It's just not in the right place and it's about time I get it where it needs to be.

Youth Group

So you know I've been a leader in The Rock for awhile now. I told the kids that they would get a frosty once a month from me. I regret saying that because that's like 90% of the conversations I have with them. I don't regret it because frosties make them happy and I like making them happy. It's not necessary, probably a little unnecessary to buy frosties. I love hanging out with those kids and playing games and talking with them. I definitely couldn't think of a better way to spend my Sunday night.

Drummin ina BAND

Just this past Monday I started taking drum lessons with Brian Ford. The lesson was a lot different than I thought it would be, but I like it. I don't know how much drumming I'm going to be doing though. I don't know how much longer I can take practicing with these guys. I miss being in Barefeet. It was nice having Jon pick out the songs and telling us how we're doing them. He gave us the option to pick other songs, he was always open to alternatives, but that wasn't necessary. In this band, everybody has a different idea of what they want to play and how they want to play. I don't think it matters that much. Just pick how the songs going and make it work. Its frustrating to go through 7 songs that we already know but still take 2.5 hours to get through them.