So I've been thinking about how I live so much like I don't need Christ. So I thought about praying "God, show me that I need Christ." But I didn't pray it. Because I fear what will happen. It just sounds like a dangerous prayer. In my mind, the way God would show me would be to take away things from me, the things I depend on. This brings to mind my truck, my laptop, my job, my family, and a few certain friends (not necessarily in that order). You know, I really don't feel like losing any of those things. So I'm still afraid to pray that prayer. I do really need to be reminded that I need Jesus. I can easily just say that to myself, but to feel like I need Him... it's just not happening. And I'm too afraid to ask.
(This doesn't mean I want you to ask for me, either.)
11 months ago