The Prayer I Fear

So I've been thinking about how I live so much like I don't need Christ. So I thought about praying "God, show me that I need Christ." But I didn't pray it. Because I fear what will happen. It just sounds like a dangerous prayer. In my mind, the way God would show me would be to take away things from me, the things I depend on. This brings to mind my truck, my laptop, my job, my family, and a few certain friends (not necessarily in that order). You know, I really don't feel like losing any of those things. So I'm still afraid to pray that prayer. I do really need to be reminded that I need Jesus. I can easily just say that to myself, but to feel like I need Him... it's just not happening. And I'm too afraid to ask.

(This doesn't mean I want you to ask for me, either.)

Practicing God's Presence

Reading through Lousy T-shirt, I came across the chapter entitled "Monk." It's about Antonucci reading books by monks. One in particular stuck out to me, for I had read some of it at NBI: The Practice of the Presence of God by Brother Lawrence.

The main idea of that book is that God is constantly with us, and it was Brother Lawrence's goal to always be aware of God's presence in his life. Strangely enough, lately I have been becoming more aware of God's presence in my life. But it's not enough. I want it more. I find myself getting more and more excited about being in love with God (when in the past, that sounded like such a weird, slightly gross thing). I find myself wanting more and more to read God's word, and other people's words about God. Anything to help me get closer to Him, and anything to help me become more like the man I should be.

It's exciting to me.

The Exciting Life of Me

So I've just been dilly dallying around with RealPlayer. I'm considering switching from Itunes to RealPlayer. Maybe I'm just tired of the scenery with Itunes, but I kinda like RealPlayer. I hate Windows Media Player. I haven't tried anything else. And I'm not in the mood to try anything else, either. I will keep you updated on this important issue. And I will give you a final decision within two months. Let the battle begin.

Bucket List

I saw my bru's post about bucket kicking stuff, and it reminded me of the movie "the bucket list." I was encouraged by this memory to make a bucket list for myself. So here it is... at least the first version of the things I want to do before I kick the bucket.

• Skydive
• Visit New Zealand
• Participate in a demolition derby
• Visit every theme park in the U.S.
• Race in a car
• Mountain bike in a mountain all day
• Go to Egypt and Jerusalem
• Swim in a pool filled with something besides water (like spaghetti or syrup)
  
• Be in a major motion picture
• Go on a cruise
• Go into outer space
• Smash an expensive guitar

Good day, sir

Yesterday was an ultra-pleasant day. I got to disc golf instead of going to chapel, and I got to disc golf after work. Each course was only 9 holes, but they were a blast. I think I ended up around 5 under on the first course, and then around 12 under on the second course (no joke). I double eagled two holes. I don't remember how many feet the holes were, but I know they were short (but my throws were still wicked awesome). We got Craig hooked on disc golf now, he bought his own set of discs after discing once.

After disc golf, we went to CiCi's pizza buffet for a special price of only three dollars and ninety nine cents! Dude, it was freakin delicious! I love CiCi's! There cinnamon rolls are just to die for.

Then we went back to craig's apt, then to best buy, and back to craig's. And we watched "The Life of David Gale." Pretty good moooooovie. I give it an A!

Now today... its snowing? I'm staying at Trinity. I don't know what I'm going to do today besides watch 24. Adam said he was coming, I expected him around 1 or 2 and now he says it will be after 5. What the heck Adam.

Break of the Spring... Spring Break, that is.

Yesterday marked the end of my Spring Break. I had a great time during my vacation, but it ended too soon. I spent Wednesday through Sunday morning in Iowa, hanging out with the Duey's, my bru, Super Suave, and Zak. Went disc golfing three times, ate a ton of food, saw some new movies, played sacapunta, stayed up late... a typical trip to Iowa. This trip resulted in me getting sick though. I've got some kinda cold or something now. Slept for ten hours last night and could slept for at least 4 more. I got a crap ton of reading to do tonight too.

I'm getting ahead of myself though. Let's go back to before I went to Iowa. Monday I spent the entire day cleaning and organizing some stuff in my house. Tuesday I spent the whole day watching TV. Although, it may have happened the other way around. Maybe I watched TV Monday and cleaned Tuesday. I don't remember. But that's typically how my days look when I go home from school.

I finna fo fake a fap. (that translates into "I'm going to go take a nap")

Anthony Nelson logged off at 12:05 P.M.