The Easy Way or the Hard Way

Having a relationship with Christ seems to be one of those things that is so simple, yet so hard. Granted, there are some things that aren't simple... they're just flat out hard. Being a martyr, that would be really hard. Losing some friends because you proclaim Christ as your savior, that would be hard. But how come some easy things are so hard? Reading scripture, spending time in prayer everyday, doing a devotional. How come those are so hard to do?

I'm convinced that we choose to make it hard. Seriously, what is so hard about praying everyday? That's one of those things you can do anytime during the day and it can last one second or one hour. Where's the hard part in that? For me, it definitely comes down to laziness and forgetfulness. It's not a good excuse by far, but I use it to justify all my failures.

What else could make this relationship so hard?

uh... yeah

What a spring break. I got to scarf down a bunch of pizza with adam, make stupid videos with Super suave, go to the Milwaukee Museum with Faith, and more. It was awesome spending time with my family, just hanging out and playing games. A much needed break from school and all the hw.

That's where the bad part comes in. I really had a bunch of hw that I needed to do. I actually didn't even bring any hw home. I don't know what I was thinking. I needed to get a lot of hw done. And there were a few other important things that I needed to get done... but haven't. I have definitely taken the lazy route while I've been home. I caught up on my TV tho... don't really know if that's good or bad...

It's been a relaxing break, but an extremely unproductive one... It's about time for me to get back to camp and get back into the swing of things.

BIG challenge...

http://www.rbc.org/devotionals/my-utmost-for-his-highest/03/12/devotion.aspx?year=2009

This is, to say the least, tough. How easy it is to "love" Christ or be devoted to Him for the sake of yourself... for your own gain? "Genuine total surrender is a personal sovereign preference for Jesus Christ Himself." And that's it.

Summer Staff Position

So the news is officially in. I signed up for Guys Staff Director or Program Team and I got... neither. Instead I got Tech Team. Probably about half of the students got the position they signed up for. I was definitely surprised when I was told that this is my job. I heard that Matt Wilhelm signed up for Staff Director, and I knew he'd get it, so that wasn't really a surprise at all (go matt!). And I didn't really expect to be put on program team either... but Tech surprised me. I'm not that happy about it... but I'm trying to be optimistic about it.

No, it's not the job I signed up for. No, I don't think it's the best job for me. And no, I don't really want to sit in the dungeon all day. But, it's not my pick. I'm sure God guided the staff here to choose this. Therefore, I'm going to be happy with it, and serve as best as I can doing this job. At least I'll get to sit in one of the few places that have A/C. And I'll learn a lot of tech stuff that I'm sure will help me in the future. And I get to work with Paul and Tessa (not that they're the coolest people in the world... but they're close). And I know I'll always be able to come back here and work as a techie!

Talking with God

I constantly hear stuff about coming to God humbly and praying with holy reverence. True indeed. But I've also heard that when you come to God, use your own language and say what you want... because God is a big boy and can handle what you have to say.

The best way for me to think about this is by thinking about a king. If you come before a king, you speak properly, politely, and in completely respect for the king (unless you're looking for trouble). You wouldn't come to a king and start mumbling, rambling, and using any indecent words.

So in light of this, how are you supposed to talk with God? I guess a more specific question I'm looking for is... what is a wrong way to talk to God? Is there such a thing as a wrong way to talk to God?

Greed

Ask anybody "Is greed bad" and they say "Yes." Ask anybody what greed is and they say...? What do you say greed is?

Good ol' days

For about the past month, so many good ol' memories have come to my mind. Things that I used to do that I miss. Is that considered homesick? If that is the case, then I guess I'm home sick. Here are some of the things I miss:

• Eating only twizzlers and coke for an entire day: breakfast, lunch, snack, snack, dinner, snack. Yum.
• Aimlessly driving around for hours.
• Seeing movies at Tinsel-town, and always having a box of Dots and drinking the biggest drink they have (and running out of food half way thru the movie)
• Disc Golf
• OCB
• city drifting (although I am getting used to coming within 3 or 4 inches of trees). I can almost drift thru the entire camp
• high school... mostly the releases I had, going home and making myself some eggs and just vegging for a few hours
• lake michigan
• having a g/f
• Golf dome, big oaks
• the Jelly Bean
• getting 10 hours of sleep
• Buddy
• Softball
• trips to Iowa
• having an income
• taco hut
• dodgeball
• and last but not least, my friends and family.

I miss all you Kenoshans and Indianolans!

Frustration

I just spent 2 hours working on my essays for Moody. When I clicked on the "next page" button, they asked me to sign in. I knew that wasn't a good thing, so I clicked the 'back' button on my browser, and it wouldn't let me go. So I signed in and got back to that page... and all my work is gone. I cannot convey how frustrated that made me. It took all I have within me to not start pounding on something. Seriously... 2 entire hours on this... and it's all gone. There's no way I'm retyping all of that. Sorry Moody, you don't get Tony.